This could be such a potentially embarrassing post, but seeing as I am an idiot, and seeing as how no one reads this, and seeing as how I am down right angry with myself, and seeing as how I don't know when it will change, and seeing as how I know I am pathetic, and seeing as how I know that I sound scary obsessive (really..I don't think I am...I just appear that way when I take the time to write it down) I have decided that putting my thoughts hear might make it better. I know, I am lying to myself, but that is all I can at this point.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Oh. Oh, Hi. I Wish that You Would Leave Me Alone.
I really am irritated with myself. I wish that I wasn't. I hate that I cannot get over certain things. I hate that I have prayed about it and thought about other things, and still can't seem to stop. I have thought about rocks, I have thought about cooking, I have thought about blankets, music, cars, trucks, exercise, Poe, clothes, coffee, television, jumping jacks, swing sets, Irish drinking songs, the river, boats, hot pink nail polish, twirling, skirts, and shoes. I have purposefully omitted school because while I do think about it, it is irrelevant to my life.
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So... There is something you can't get over? hmmm. Well, cheer up - I love you! I know, cheering up is easier said than done, for sure. It was a beautiful day today! I'm looking forward to when you get out of school - we can hang out on the patio and have a margarita *ahem* lemonade, and watch S & I splash each other in the kiddie pool... Sounds fun, right? I'm looking forward to it anyway. :o)
I know how you feel. It is easy to think about things over and over again like it is on repeat. I will pray for you. Listening to some good music, or reading a good book helps me sometimes (when I get like that). It is not a cure all but it works a lot better than trying to transfer my thoughts to another subject without help. I'm praying for you.
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