4 1/2 hours of sleep. Some people MAY function well on this. Although I highly doubt it, but perhaps. I, however do not.
You know those people who sit in coffee shops? They look so freakin' artsy. They sit and drink coffee and talk. They may even study. I envy those people. I sit behind the counter of your coffee shop; and I envy you. I work past 12:00 am and I get up at 6 am. I have no time to go and sit, read, write, study, or talk. The only reason I am sitting here in the library is because my class was cancelled.
So far I am four weeks into school. My back hurts, my eyes burn, I drink more caffeinated substances than should legally be permitted. I am sorely overworked and underpaid. I don't do "fun stuff" anymore. I take that back. I go to bible study and church.
I am just tired; and I find myself hiding in bathrooms from people I don't want to see. I know I am complaining. But trust me, I will put a positive spin on this.....
I am learning! I am not confused by Statistics [yet]! I got sarcastic with my Western Civ teacher...and didn't get in trouble. I get to COLOR maps for World Geography. I made myself a strawberry-cream smoothie with white chocolate last night.....it was m-azing.
I feel like right now I am not making an impact. And I don't want to just exist....I want to impact someone or something. I will get there. God knows me. He knows what I can handle. He is taking care of me. He will let me know when it is my turn. I guess that this is real life? Beautiful.
